I'm SO procrastinating right now - should be studying but after the crazy conversation with my mother now I have to vent about it.
Shouldn't a mother want the best for her daughter? Why should she be forced to go out with any Joe Schmoe who asks just so she doesn't stay in this horrible, lonely, depressing, disgraceful, pathetic, hell-on-earth state of unmarriage?
"You're 2_ years old you know, it's not like you're 23 anymore - why won't you go out with him? How do you know you're not interested if you've only met him once?"
Shouldn't the fact that I'm not interested be enough for her? Why do I have justify it? And why is she pushing so hard anyways? Oh, it's because:
"You don't want to end up the only one of your friends unmarried. It will be very lonely when you're 35 and have no husband and all of your friends are getting married and they're going to ignore you."
WHAT? So just because my friends get married they're not going to be my friends anymore?
Not that I don't want to get married, but I don't see my unmarried state as lonely and pathetic. The way I look at it, my mother is the one who's desperate for me to get married - not me. So LEAVE ME ALONE. Don't push your neuroses on me. I have enough of my own.
OH! I forgot the best part. "It's not like you're young anymore. You're not tall and attractive." Hahahahahahaha - it would really be funny if it wasn't so friggin insulting.
God, please grant me patience. And please give my mother understanding and sensitivity.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Monday, September 05, 2005
Maid of Honour
Was maid of honour for the first time this weekend. Was quite a lot of fun actually. Fantastic weather, and good company. Congratulations, J & D!
Can't wait for the professional pics.
Can't wait for the professional pics.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Fake Boyfriend
Problem solved! I stayed late at the office today, for the first time since I've been back, and ended up eating dinner with a certain TCE mgr - you know, guy who AKT swears she wasn't admiring during UFE prep ("it was LT! LT! LT!") So we went to Marche, got our food & brought it back to the Firm's caf - and who should see us as we're stepping off the elevator but Techie Guy! I almost didn't recognize him, but we exchanged "hi's" and then TCE mgr and I went to the caf.
SCORE! Do you think he thinks he's my bf??
Wait - does that mean I won't get technical support anymore????
On a totally unrelated note...
As much as I'm pissed at Bell Mobility, I succumb to the inevitability of poor customer service and have chosen the devil I know vs. the one I don't. They're both devils, so better to go with the one that lets me keep my phone number. Right? No more agonizing!
Sigh..."once I was the king of spain...."
SCORE! Do you think he thinks he's my bf??
Wait - does that mean I won't get technical support anymore????
On a totally unrelated note...
As much as I'm pissed at Bell Mobility, I succumb to the inevitability of poor customer service and have chosen the devil I know vs. the one I don't. They're both devils, so better to go with the one that lets me keep my phone number. Right? No more agonizing!
Sigh..."once I was the king of spain...."
Monday, May 09, 2005
It never rains but it pours
I wish I could've also titled this "Azn Fetish", but since he's also Azn, I guess that doesn't work...so what the hell do I call it? Pedophile? You be the judges...
Context: at work...had to go down to tech support and get my laptop configured for wireless, which, by the way, STILL isn't working. the techie guy down there had already had to help me with other problems, so apparently I was already getting infamous with the TSS group. So he fixes my hub, and I get back to my desk - and no sooner do I get back to my desk than he starts instant messengering me [these are actual quotes of his messages, I did not alter them except as noted in brackets]:
Techie - So are there any other computer problems?:P
Me - well actually....i wasn't able to access external internet when i came back to my desk, then i figured out the proxy was unchecked, so i fixed it, MYSELF :P
Techie - oh ya the proxy
Techie - oops:P~
Techie - psssh
Techie - so how long have you actually been with [The Firm] Miss Woesie R
[ed note - one of the problems he had to help me with was this mysterious "R" middle name...]
Techie - :P
Me - in total....over 6 years i think....
Techie - WOW
Me - yeah - was way too long, much longer than i thought it'd be
Techie - well now longer than ever muhahahahaha!
Techie - :P
Me - yes, exactly...boomerang
Techie - haha i thought u were like 23-24... but seeing how u been here 6yrs, there goes that theory:P
Me - yeah, unless i'm a child genius, which i'm not
Techie - of course not, that's why we stuck the "R" in your middle initial, and you said everyone figured it out:P hehe
[ed note - I had told him that JCL figgered the "R" = retard]
Me - right
Techie - lol
Techie - ya ML calls you the lil mouse that roared
Techie - and i was thinking, hrmmm if you try to pronounce Woesie in chinese... you can sorta make it out to say "low shue" as in mice heh...
I had to cut it off there...ridiculous! He wasn't particularly fobby when I was talking to him, but where the hell did he come up with this "low shue" crap? BLOCK USER, BLOCK USER....
Girls, be careful of instant messengering and tech support....they don't mix!
Context: at work...had to go down to tech support and get my laptop configured for wireless, which, by the way, STILL isn't working. the techie guy down there had already had to help me with other problems, so apparently I was already getting infamous with the TSS group. So he fixes my hub, and I get back to my desk - and no sooner do I get back to my desk than he starts instant messengering me [these are actual quotes of his messages, I did not alter them except as noted in brackets]:
Techie - So are there any other computer problems?:P
Me - well actually....i wasn't able to access external internet when i came back to my desk, then i figured out the proxy was unchecked, so i fixed it, MYSELF :P
Techie - oh ya the proxy
Techie - oops:P~
Techie - psssh
Techie - so how long have you actually been with [The Firm] Miss Woesie R
[ed note - one of the problems he had to help me with was this mysterious "R" middle name...]
Techie - :P
Me - in total....over 6 years i think....
Techie - WOW
Me - yeah - was way too long, much longer than i thought it'd be
Techie - well now longer than ever muhahahahaha!
Techie - :P
Me - yes, exactly...boomerang
Techie - haha i thought u were like 23-24... but seeing how u been here 6yrs, there goes that theory:P
Me - yeah, unless i'm a child genius, which i'm not
Techie - of course not, that's why we stuck the "R" in your middle initial, and you said everyone figured it out:P hehe
[ed note - I had told him that JCL figgered the "R" = retard]
Me - right
Techie - lol
Techie - ya ML calls you the lil mouse that roared
Techie - and i was thinking, hrmmm if you try to pronounce Woesie in chinese... you can sorta make it out to say "low shue" as in mice heh...
I had to cut it off there...ridiculous! He wasn't particularly fobby when I was talking to him, but where the hell did he come up with this "low shue" crap? BLOCK USER, BLOCK USER....
Girls, be careful of instant messengering and tech support....they don't mix!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Azn Fetish
Attention White Boys: GET OVER IT.
Talking to lil azn girlz about their horoscope signs - and WHITE horoscope signs, at that - is not a great way to pick up an azn chick. How could these dorks expect to compete with rice rockets and an engineering degree?
Context:
So I finally buy my cell phone from the local non-Bell Mobility store at the Eaton Centre. Plenty of azn guys work there, and I'm dealing with one, a guy who's been very patient with me all 20 times I visited and today when I finally committed to buying this phone.
White boy's been there each time too, but I always ignored him, because everyone knew that azn boy is helping me out.
Today, I'm at the counter, on hold with Bell for about 5 hours, and White Boy starts initiating conversation. First, he offers me some "Family Guy" (i.e. the TV show) version of spaz juice, which I decline. Then, once I'm off the phone with Bell, he starts by saying, "So, let me use my superpowers to tell you what sign you are." I'm too startled to object. His first guess: Aries. I said no. He said oh, his superpowers must not be working so well today. He asked me what my sign was. I told him to guess again, I would give him 3 more chances. He guessed 3 other signs that were wrong. Finally, I told him my sign, and he told me all these traits of that particular zodiac. I'm like, yeah, yeah - and I actually said to him, "So have you been reading a lot of Cosmo magazine or something?" You'd think he'd get the hint after that!!!
Meanwhile, the guy starts touching me - on my shoulder. Actual hand on shoulder with pressure & grip. Multiple times. In the context of, "Oh, you know, with your sign, [grip shoulder], you have a strong temper, but very loyal...blah blah blah." I'm like, how unprofessional is that???
Then he has to go through the whole ritual of, where am I from originally, oh, Chinese, you know, some people you can't tell and you don't want to offend the Korean guy by assuming he's Chinese....and where do I work, oh, doing HR, yeah, he knows some HR people and they just sit around and do nothing all day, blow people off and then hang out in the staff lounge and play computer games. Don't I agree that HR people don't do much work?
Blah blah blah....
DUDE...what's your problem? Does that work on white chicks? Cuz it don't work on lil azn girlz. Get over your fetish and go find some girls that you might actually be able to impress with your Cosmo magazine current events knowledge.
At least I got my phone...too bad the Chinese guy didn't hit on me instead. Does it mean he's gay if he's got a non-wedding ring on his ring finger?
Talking to lil azn girlz about their horoscope signs - and WHITE horoscope signs, at that - is not a great way to pick up an azn chick. How could these dorks expect to compete with rice rockets and an engineering degree?
Context:
So I finally buy my cell phone from the local non-Bell Mobility store at the Eaton Centre. Plenty of azn guys work there, and I'm dealing with one, a guy who's been very patient with me all 20 times I visited and today when I finally committed to buying this phone.
White boy's been there each time too, but I always ignored him, because everyone knew that azn boy is helping me out.
Today, I'm at the counter, on hold with Bell for about 5 hours, and White Boy starts initiating conversation. First, he offers me some "Family Guy" (i.e. the TV show) version of spaz juice, which I decline. Then, once I'm off the phone with Bell, he starts by saying, "So, let me use my superpowers to tell you what sign you are." I'm too startled to object. His first guess: Aries. I said no. He said oh, his superpowers must not be working so well today. He asked me what my sign was. I told him to guess again, I would give him 3 more chances. He guessed 3 other signs that were wrong. Finally, I told him my sign, and he told me all these traits of that particular zodiac. I'm like, yeah, yeah - and I actually said to him, "So have you been reading a lot of Cosmo magazine or something?" You'd think he'd get the hint after that!!!
Meanwhile, the guy starts touching me - on my shoulder. Actual hand on shoulder with pressure & grip. Multiple times. In the context of, "Oh, you know, with your sign, [grip shoulder], you have a strong temper, but very loyal...blah blah blah." I'm like, how unprofessional is that???
Then he has to go through the whole ritual of, where am I from originally, oh, Chinese, you know, some people you can't tell and you don't want to offend the Korean guy by assuming he's Chinese....and where do I work, oh, doing HR, yeah, he knows some HR people and they just sit around and do nothing all day, blow people off and then hang out in the staff lounge and play computer games. Don't I agree that HR people don't do much work?
Blah blah blah....
DUDE...what's your problem? Does that work on white chicks? Cuz it don't work on lil azn girlz. Get over your fetish and go find some girls that you might actually be able to impress with your Cosmo magazine current events knowledge.
At least I got my phone...too bad the Chinese guy didn't hit on me instead. Does it mean he's gay if he's got a non-wedding ring on his ring finger?
Friday, April 29, 2005
Boomerang
Well, I'm going back. BUT NOT TO AUDIT!!!!!! Never again to audit...but...never say never....see how my life plans have clearly drastically changed in, oh, say, the last 15 years??!!!
At 23, I was supposed to be engaged.
25, married.
27, babies...
I'm already behind.
And where did my career figure into all this?
I think I was supposed to be a cashier or bank teller making $50/hr.
Oh, the dreams of an 8-year-old....
NOW....
I'm at The Firm again. Doing HR, which I said I'd never do. But hey, at least it's NOT AUDIT!
(News reporter voice:)
"Will Ro still be Woe? Will she change jobs again in less than a year? How long will it take for her to HML all over again???"
BPL...I need your help...need to come up with a whole new HML-o-meter scale!
(PS - I just re-read the post and it sounds extremely negative. But I'm actually not - I'm still really excited about the change! Current HML-o-meter reading - 0.)
At 23, I was supposed to be engaged.
25, married.
27, babies...
I'm already behind.
And where did my career figure into all this?
I think I was supposed to be a cashier or bank teller making $50/hr.
Oh, the dreams of an 8-year-old....
NOW....
I'm at The Firm again. Doing HR, which I said I'd never do. But hey, at least it's NOT AUDIT!
(News reporter voice:)
"Will Ro still be Woe? Will she change jobs again in less than a year? How long will it take for her to HML all over again???"
BPL...I need your help...need to come up with a whole new HML-o-meter scale!
(PS - I just re-read the post and it sounds extremely negative. But I'm actually not - I'm still really excited about the change! Current HML-o-meter reading - 0.)
Monday, April 25, 2005
Reality Check
Guess what I just read in the Metro today.
"In 2002...the top 10% of [tax return] filers had income of more than $64,500, the lowest 50% of filers had income equal to or less than $23,000, and the remaining 40% had income levels between $23,000 and $64,500."
So that's:
10% of population - $64,500 +
40% of population - $23,000 - $64,500
50% of population - <$23,000
Granted, there's been some inflation since 2002 - but given the most recent CA salary survey, the average salary for a brand new qualified CA is $65,000. So that means that as soon as you've got your CA hours, you're in the top 10% of the Canadian population income bracket - at least, for those who file tax returns. In fact, probably there are even more people in the <$23,000 category who DON'T file tax returns because they don't think it's worth filing, they don't make enough money, don't know how to do it - etc. So it might be more like the top 7 or 8% of the Canadian population.
How crazy is that??????
"In 2002...the top 10% of [tax return] filers had income of more than $64,500, the lowest 50% of filers had income equal to or less than $23,000, and the remaining 40% had income levels between $23,000 and $64,500."
So that's:
10% of population - $64,500 +
40% of population - $23,000 - $64,500
50% of population - <$23,000
Granted, there's been some inflation since 2002 - but given the most recent CA salary survey, the average salary for a brand new qualified CA is $65,000. So that means that as soon as you've got your CA hours, you're in the top 10% of the Canadian population income bracket - at least, for those who file tax returns. In fact, probably there are even more people in the <$23,000 category who DON'T file tax returns because they don't think it's worth filing, they don't make enough money, don't know how to do it - etc. So it might be more like the top 7 or 8% of the Canadian population.
How crazy is that??????
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
HML-O-METER
This is the OFFICIAL meter reading for Woe only - it is OFFICIALLY UNSANCTIONED by the HML governing council, as per Bullpen L.
0 - I'm in paradise. Life will never feel this good again.
1 - Then I am forced to wake up and get out of bed in the morning.
2 - Now I'm at work.
3 - Rejected by candidate on cold call.
4 - Rejected by client on marketing call.
5 - Actually speak to someone! It's a client! Client rejects my candidates.
6 - Client tells me that I'm an idiot for sending the candidate, they're firing me.
7 - Actually speak to a candidate! Candidate rejects my client.
8 - Candidate tells me they hate me, don't ever call them again.
9 - Client accepts my candidate, refuses to pay me.
10 - I kill myself and enter the gates of hell.
I see that this is just a work thing. There need to be various other readings, such as:
8 - Accidentally saved an auto-recovered document over the document I really needed. Now have to look like an idiot to tech support to get the older document back.
9 - Cell phone provider screws me repeatedly by rejecting my polite requests for decent customer service & a free phone. I waste hours and hours of my time. At my current hourly salary, that would be worth....$0.
Of course, the level of these events will automatically increase depending on the number of HML events that have already occurred during the day. An event normally at level 1 would be escalated to level 8 if it was 5 pm and multiple level 1 events have already occured.
There, BPL - just for you!!! UNSANCTIONED!!!
0 - I'm in paradise. Life will never feel this good again.
1 - Then I am forced to wake up and get out of bed in the morning.
2 - Now I'm at work.
3 - Rejected by candidate on cold call.
4 - Rejected by client on marketing call.
5 - Actually speak to someone! It's a client! Client rejects my candidates.
6 - Client tells me that I'm an idiot for sending the candidate, they're firing me.
7 - Actually speak to a candidate! Candidate rejects my client.
8 - Candidate tells me they hate me, don't ever call them again.
9 - Client accepts my candidate, refuses to pay me.
10 - I kill myself and enter the gates of hell.
I see that this is just a work thing. There need to be various other readings, such as:
8 - Accidentally saved an auto-recovered document over the document I really needed. Now have to look like an idiot to tech support to get the older document back.
9 - Cell phone provider screws me repeatedly by rejecting my polite requests for decent customer service & a free phone. I waste hours and hours of my time. At my current hourly salary, that would be worth....$0.
Of course, the level of these events will automatically increase depending on the number of HML events that have already occurred during the day. An event normally at level 1 would be escalated to level 8 if it was 5 pm and multiple level 1 events have already occured.
There, BPL - just for you!!! UNSANCTIONED!!!
Thursday, February 10, 2005
I got spammed
...by a scary Polish (Russian) dude on my answering machine. The scariest thing is he addressed the message to my mom...i.e. using my mom's name...which as far as I know is not listed for this number, so how'd he get it??!!
Message as follows (must be read with thick Polish/Russian accent):
"Hello? Uh...Janusz here...how are you? Uh...do you need da moving or de delivery? We have ah da nice big truck, and strong men, for uh, if you have uh de factory, office, house, or uh aquarium, de one wit de fish, if not it's not a problem. Uh, we work in time, uh, and ahm, very low price. Ahh, please to make de call, and ask for me, ees Jaaanusz, ees 416-###-####. Oii-kay, eh, bye bye."
It loses something in the translation - but suffice to say, the verbal version is HILARIOUS....I swear it's like a practical joke or something you hear on America's Funniest Answering Machine Messages or something!
On a totally separate note - I can't believe Kris & Jon lost the amazing race!
Message as follows (must be read with thick Polish/Russian accent):
"Hello? Uh...Janusz here...how are you? Uh...do you need da moving or de delivery? We have ah da nice big truck, and strong men, for uh, if you have uh de factory, office, house, or uh aquarium, de one wit de fish, if not it's not a problem. Uh, we work in time, uh, and ahm, very low price. Ahh, please to make de call, and ask for me, ees Jaaanusz, ees 416-###-####. Oii-kay, eh, bye bye."
It loses something in the translation - but suffice to say, the verbal version is HILARIOUS....I swear it's like a practical joke or something you hear on America's Funniest Answering Machine Messages or something!
On a totally separate note - I can't believe Kris & Jon lost the amazing race!
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Suffering comes, and is real
Anyone ever read "Tuesdays with Morrie?" A truly wonderful-sounding human being becomes continually sicker and more physically incapacitated until he finally dies. But his slow deterioration is taken in stride and with positive outlook by him and his family, which inspires his young student and millions more who read about him.
Sounds great, doesn't it? But I read another book which described a situation where someone was sick with kidney stones, and was cowering beneath their sheets, crying and whining the whole time. But the doctor reminded the reader that "suffering comes, and is real" to all individuals - and no matter how each individual handles it, we should always have compassion for those who are sick.
We can't expect everyone who is in pain or in need to be as heroic about it as Morrie. And I'm sure Morrie was not as heroic as he seemed to be in the book his entire life (or death). Several times I've caught myself getting impatient with one individual in particular who's suffering mightily and thinking, why can't they just grin and bear it, or be more positive -thinking negatively can only make it worse. And yet, this is the human condition. We are weak and it saddens me to think that as much as this person professes to have faith in God, it's not helping them much now because I don't see them using it in a real way. I don't know how to describe it better, but I just got this from a friend, and it seems to fit:
"Do not be anxious in anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which trandscends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philipians 4:3)
I don't feel like this individual is doing this at all. It's like - there's prayer without peace - just prayer to get better, and if little milestones are accomplished, prayers of thanksgiving. And these are important too, but they're not happy at all with what they've got. I mean - shouldn't we just try to trust in God that He will deliver what is needed? And that even the suffering we experience now has a purpose? I know, I know - easier said than done. If they could do this, they deserve to be in the Bible too. But I find it hard to respond to proclamations of guilt over dragging us down with their suffering, or of anguish & frustration, and of things that I think are blatantly unfair to the current caregivers. And as a future caregiver myself (probably not-too-distant future caregiver), I'm really worried about how I will be able to handle it, or even what I need to do.
I guess this is where I need to take my own advice and ask God for help, and trust that He will show me the way. In the meantime - we all continue to suffer in silence and frustration.
Sounds great, doesn't it? But I read another book which described a situation where someone was sick with kidney stones, and was cowering beneath their sheets, crying and whining the whole time. But the doctor reminded the reader that "suffering comes, and is real" to all individuals - and no matter how each individual handles it, we should always have compassion for those who are sick.
We can't expect everyone who is in pain or in need to be as heroic about it as Morrie. And I'm sure Morrie was not as heroic as he seemed to be in the book his entire life (or death). Several times I've caught myself getting impatient with one individual in particular who's suffering mightily and thinking, why can't they just grin and bear it, or be more positive -thinking negatively can only make it worse. And yet, this is the human condition. We are weak and it saddens me to think that as much as this person professes to have faith in God, it's not helping them much now because I don't see them using it in a real way. I don't know how to describe it better, but I just got this from a friend, and it seems to fit:
"Do not be anxious in anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which trandscends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philipians 4:3)
I don't feel like this individual is doing this at all. It's like - there's prayer without peace - just prayer to get better, and if little milestones are accomplished, prayers of thanksgiving. And these are important too, but they're not happy at all with what they've got. I mean - shouldn't we just try to trust in God that He will deliver what is needed? And that even the suffering we experience now has a purpose? I know, I know - easier said than done. If they could do this, they deserve to be in the Bible too. But I find it hard to respond to proclamations of guilt over dragging us down with their suffering, or of anguish & frustration, and of things that I think are blatantly unfair to the current caregivers. And as a future caregiver myself (probably not-too-distant future caregiver), I'm really worried about how I will be able to handle it, or even what I need to do.
I guess this is where I need to take my own advice and ask God for help, and trust that He will show me the way. In the meantime - we all continue to suffer in silence and frustration.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)